Well, I went to the office yesterday....got some work done.....it felt pretty good. But like Lucy, I think I'm still going to have some splainin to do when a few of my clients call and ask "hey, what's up with my ads?" I'm almost caught up and I think by the end of today or tomorrow, I'll be good to go....go where, I don't know. Wilber Hot Springs would be nice, that's where I took this picture...doesn't she look at peace?
Had a meeting with the girls last night...the meeting before the meeting tonight with the rest of the development board. We seem to not be ready to give up the control...not sure we ever meant to. In my mind, we were asking for help doing the stuff we couldn't get to, not help taking away what we love doing. And now, after the retreat, it seems that we are being asked to give it up what we actually want to be doing. It doesn't feel good, I feel like on the defensive and that's not what I want.
This morning I sent this to the girls:
Sooo...just something to think about....when I told Jillian that we were going to ask folks to back-off, that we were going to call Yellow, she got all butt hurt and said that we were jerking people around. First we want their help, and then when the help starts coming in, we push it all away...she thinks it's too late to ask people to back off....now we're all grumpy at each other, fuck I hate this shit!
I think a good way to phrase tonight may be two fold.....first we have to say that although we knew we wanted help, we apparently did a poor job of being clear about what we wanted help with. We know what we like to do for the Imps, and have an idea of what we need help with...what ended up happening at the retreat was not exactly what we wanted. What seemed to happen at the retreat was that EVERYTHING was thrown on the table, when really, we only want to throw a few things out there. So the first thing is to restate what it is we actually want help with.....THEN we can start talking about who wants to do what and what the decision making process will be. And the second part would be that, after the retreat, we all have a lot to think about AND we have 3 events to put on between now and the end of the year. We are calling Yellow, because we have to rethink what it is we are actually asking for in the business structure, but are still pretty clear about business function - we put on parties, so we need to concentrate on that. Maybe that will work.